meganee

LAYER ONE

Name:Megan J. Emerson
Birth date: Aug 1. 92
Status: Single
Current Location: Panorama, Ca.

Eye Color: dark brown
Hair Color: Black
Height: 5'3
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Leo


LAYER TWO: On The Inside

Your heritage: Filipino, Native american, Black
Shoes you wore today: VANS
Your weakness: love...=/
Your fears: failing the people i love the most =[
Your perfect pizza: pepperoni, cheese, n some steak
Goal you'd like to achieve: just to be happy in watever i dol


LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

Your most overused phrase on AIM: tee hee hee
Your thoughts first waking up: not again
Your best physical feature: not sure...hmm
Your bedtime: wenever i get tired
Your most missed memory:


LAYER FOUR: Your Pick

Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald
Single or group dates: it depends on the mood
Adidas or Nike: both
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Both
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate....mmm
Cappuccino or coffee: mmmm... cappucino


LAYER FIVE: Do You?

Smoke: no
Cuss: it always turns out bad
Sing: <3... always
Take a shower everyday: ofcourse
Have a crush(es): yes
Think you've been in love: not really ..maybe once though
Like(d) high school: getting ther
Want to get married: one day
Believe in yourself: Sometimes
Get motion sickness: once in awhile
Think you're attractive: not really... do u think im attractive?
Think you're a health freak: hahah never
Get along with your parents: no way
Like thunderstorms: they're kinda scary but intresting to look at
Play an instrument: the drums, giutar,bass


LAYER SIX: In the past month have you...

Drank alcohol: yes
Smoked: nope
Done a drug: nope
Made Out: nope
Gone on a date: nope
Gone to the mall?: hahah! ofcourse
Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: mmm oreos... but no
Eaten sushi:not allowed too
Been on stage: ofcourse
Been dumped: nope
Gone skating: nope
Gone skinny dipping: nope.. but one day
Dyed your hair: yup
Stolen anything: i dont wanna say


LAYER SEVEN: Ever...

Played a game that required removal of clothing: nope
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nope
Been caught "doing something": yup
Been called a tease: lolz yes..
Gotten beaten up: nope
Shoplifted: once or twice ..not alot


LAYER EIGHT: Getting Older

Age you hope to be married: not sure yet
Numbers and Names of Children: note sur but at least a girl n a boy..
Describe your dream wedding: simple and beautiful
How do you want to die: not painfully i hope
What do you want to be when you grow up:artist,chief
What country would you most like to visit: anywhere but here!


LAYER NINE: In a boy (or girl)

Best eye color?: any color is fine..
Best hair color?: doesn't matter
Short or long hair: short but kinda long...
Height: as long as they are taller than me
Best first date location: anywhere, as long as im with him

LAYER TEN: In The Numbers...

Number of drugs taken illegally: none
Number of people I could trust with my life: 2
Number of CDs that I own: a lot
Number of piercings: 2
Number of tattoos: none
Number of times my name has appeared in the Newspaper?: i have no idea... i don't really read the newspaper...
Number of scars on my body: many
Number of things in my past that I regret: more than i can remember

hello ther!
well this week i have been through alot
its been really confusing..but i know i'll be okay
well it all started out pretty kool
but one thing led to another and something ended up changing
it was good but at the same time it felt bad
well anyways......
jay n ev seem to be getting close which is so kool
i guess since im in the middle its kool coz i pretty much get to know everything that goes on...if it wasnt for me i dont thing anything wouldve ...started ..or maybe not whose..i love them both so much
there the best two ppl i know
i dont mind them getting together but at the same im gonna miss alot
like i wouldnt want them to forget me
yah i know corny or watever
but it always happens to me ..so shouldnt feel so bad
its just im gonna miss talking to jay about EVERYTHING & literally EVERYTHING
but its okay coz he'll be happy..n ive always thought he needed someone
plus seeing him happy makes me happy just coz hes always been ther for me
then thers ev..n i know shes gonna get to caught up with him to remember me but i guess that okay coz im use to it from her
anyways..they'll be one awesome couple
i hope i did the right thing with them
anyways ive been thinking alot lately n it kills me so much
i wanna talk to someone about it..coz that would give me a major relief see i would totally tell jay..but all of sudden i feel things changed between us so its hard to tell him things these days..plus hes caught up with other things so i dont wanna be a bother or an annoyance to him....n that least thing i wanna do is disappoint him at any point....ive started to kind of not tell him things only coz he changed..i dont know in wat kind of way but he did n it sucks..coz things are different now ahhhhhh well watever i cant do anything now. man this whole thing makes me feel like a loser grrr
well im just happy to let things out since i cant tell others
this week as been very intresting but thers nothing i can do
so these past few days i havent gotten any sleep or anything
or eaten iono why but i cant eat anymore these days
n ive been crying alot..
n i hate it coz things get to me so easily and i cant bottle it up inside
coz that will end up in something bad
things just havent been going my way..or i planned
ahhh i hate how life gets to me....i'll just finish all this sometime later



P.S. even if they do forget me
its okay..sooner or later they'll remember=/

♥MegAnee

these past few weeks have been pretty kool
many things have changed but i guess i'll just go along with it
once summer started i thought i'd still have the same friends but i guess not.
=/

omg i hate you life...hahah..
you aggrivate me
you confuse me
you hurt me
you make me hurt others
you make things wrong
you make things right
you make things hard
you make things easy




rawr

Every Girls Dream
Get kissed in the rain
Have that one hott kiss where your pressed against the wall
Have a guy that think you're the world
Have a guy that holds on as long as possible when giving hugs
A guy who will watch any movie with you, no matter how teary eyed you may get.
A guy who is loyal
A guy that will sing to you no matter how bad he is at it.
A guy that will call you beautiful or adorable...not hot, fine, or sexy
A guy that will never judge you for how you look.
A boy that says cheezy stuff to you just to make u smile
A boy that tells you everything honestly
A guy that will always let you win
A guy who stands up for you no matter who it is against
A boy who you can hangout and have fun with
A boy that will just randomly call you for no reason at all, just because he missed you
A guy who will hold your hand through the roughest parts of life.
A guy who you can be yourself with and he will never give a care and would still tell you that you are amazing to him.
A guy who runs his fingers through your hair, like he's washing your worries/troubles away that is so cute

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» in every girls life . there will.
always be `*' th0se 3 guys.... `
[ the one she loves ] // [ the one
she hates ] & [ the one she can't'
get - enough of ] .& in the end_
their all the s . a . m . e guy «`-
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Every penny in a well, every broken wishbone, every 11:11 on a clock, every crossed finger, every turn of a necklace pendant, every shooting star in the sky, every fallen eyelash, every blown out candle, every wish I could make.... will n.e.v.e.r give me you

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For every little tear we cried
For all the crazy stuff we tried
For staying true through odds and ends
No one can replace my best friends

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Sometimes when you meet someone
&& before you know their name
before you know where they're from
You know that sometime in the future
This person is going to mean something to you
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It's hard to wait around for something
that you know won't ever happen
but it's harder to stop when you
know it's everything you ever wanted

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well today...
started off pretty tiring with me wakingearly n then i had cpr classes which are supper hard..n i think i led someone on which sux..then
i went home chilled for awhile..wen i eactly got there i wento sleep then once i awoke..everyone was gone..so i turned on my comp n signed on..wat happens my sis comes home..n shes like can u hurry up..i gotta blah blah blah..n it she was saying it with attitude so i was like wat the hell..n i couldnt take it so i just left like watever..n it suxs cuz i just got on n she was alredy complaining..so the only thing that made me happy was watching the volume 2 of jackass..it made me laugh n it was fun...then i was soon able to talk to my "seester'" stephh which was kool..cuz she feels the same way i do about my sis
which is awesome cuz i thought i was the only one...
anyways wen it was time to practice n wen we got to the hall i had felt better becuz i was able to hang with my partner memo..he is so kool..he always does these kool n weird things its so funni thats why i love him so much...yupp...n it was fun dancing cuz at times in the dance we do we cuz each boy has there own style of dancing which is so kool and fun..especially wen i dance with my friends calvin ..oh my...he makes it so stylish hahah i love it..then after we all just played around...then went to mc. donalds to eat out..n it was hella fun..even though i was the youngest they included me in everything it was so enjoyable unlike wen i hang with others...well yupp..i had some good n bad times in my day..but wen i see that my good has conquered my bad..it makes me happy inside..well yupp thats my day

hmm ....
today i thought my day wouldnt have been so bad..i woke up early i was able to watch my favorite music vidoes which was unexpected ..then i got to skool n we had grad practice ..ahhh theres just to much ..i dont know to feel anymore..i lost afriend ..n thers these two boys..who make me feelings go crazy with wat they do n say..ahhh..i wish i had fairy or something..so my wishesw orked n everything..i miss my imagining days

hello ther!
welll it seems that this week ive had alot going on at skoo...
well i hope things get better cuz my finals are coming up...

hello ther!
well today wasnt really that awesome
so i will tell you about yesterday that really made me think alot..i was sitting in class n it was a pretty okay day. then we read in our morality book that words really do hurts n the phrase" sticks and stones my break my bones my words will never hurt me" it was just a saying to make kids feel alrite n to see that wen someone makes fun of you..you shouldnt care cuz ther not suppose to hurt. well later on it kept me thinking, then i soon wen home chilled, then went to my sisters high skool to attend ther special metting, i was so excited for i would see the guy i like "pedro" well anyways he looked so very good. he's one of the only guys that ive ever had so much intrest in, he's so weird n i love it so much, he loves japanese things which is totally awesome, we listen to the same things..we have the same ideas n weridness, he skates, dances..omg he dances which is the most beautiful thing..n i thought he was the perfect guy! until i came online that now n started talking to him...we talked n talked like we usually did but i was so tired of not knowing how he felt about me so i was trying to be sllick asking him this question..."so would you ever go out with me?, not now but would you ever?" but waiting for that moment of chance i recieved a "no im no its becuz your too young for me" i was so hurt not know wat to feel..i am only two yers younger n that shouldnt mean anything..so i came back n asked him"so if i was older by 1 or two yers would you got out with me then?" then he says yes definetly.. after that a felt a sting to my heart which i had never felt before ..he meant so much to me..=/ i was about to cry wen i thought of the old saying" STICK N STONES MY BREAK MY BONES BUT WORDS WILL NEVER HURT ME!" as i said that i tried my best to realized that if he was so perfect he would have loved me just the way i am..n if he truley cared age wouldnt have matter..but now all i can do is move on..knowing only if ...only if.....only if ...only if i was older maybe we would have had a chnace so as i was once told " You just have to go after what you want..and if
it doesn't want you back, it doesn't
deserve you anyway.

thats my story if only
brought to you by MEGANEE